I can feel my body crashing. It's like being a small child and not knowing what part hurts, or why you feel bad, only that you just do and it all hurts.
I'm fairly certain I am crashing because work is hell. Not the job part or the boss part, but the other people and working for a large bureaucracy part.
We have an employee who stole money, is addicted to the most pathetic thing heard of and has barely shown up to work in months. The bureaucracy part means we will have to keep them until the day they die, because god forbid we do something which might in a very small and particular light seem unfair.
I don't want this to seem mean or unfeeling, but this means my job now sucks and is now largely composed of fixing all of their dropped pieces, my normal job, the busiest time of year(which is from mid-March until August) normal chaos, my student, and going to school at the same time. it's no wonder my body wants out...my brain sure as hell does too.
I'm not sure there are actually options at this point; other than show up and survive. If I'm lucky my body will just stick it out with me and while not feeling good or even very capable, we will both make it out alive and hopefully still attached. :)
Unauthorized advice: Treat yourself. No, a Cadbury egg is not good for you, it was not designed to be. However, for a few moments you are less concerned about the crap around you and more about not getting the fake egg goop everywhere.
Drink lots-o water. Have treats but do not let yourself slip into a crap diet of just beer and cadbury eggs. That will only make things much, much worse. Try to eat sensibly; leafy greens, blueberries, salmon. All good for RA/JRA. Also find good books, movies or PS3 games and remember you will survive.
Side note: Addiction does change who a person is and functions on a neural level. Your nervous system is now fundamentally changed; this is how a person develops tolerance to a drug their body adapts. I do not mean to belittle addiction, but only to express my own anger at this situation.
I'm fairly certain I am crashing because work is hell. Not the job part or the boss part, but the other people and working for a large bureaucracy part.
We have an employee who stole money, is addicted to the most pathetic thing heard of and has barely shown up to work in months. The bureaucracy part means we will have to keep them until the day they die, because god forbid we do something which might in a very small and particular light seem unfair.
I don't want this to seem mean or unfeeling, but this means my job now sucks and is now largely composed of fixing all of their dropped pieces, my normal job, the busiest time of year(which is from mid-March until August) normal chaos, my student, and going to school at the same time. it's no wonder my body wants out...my brain sure as hell does too.
I'm not sure there are actually options at this point; other than show up and survive. If I'm lucky my body will just stick it out with me and while not feeling good or even very capable, we will both make it out alive and hopefully still attached. :)
Drink lots-o water. Have treats but do not let yourself slip into a crap diet of just beer and cadbury eggs. That will only make things much, much worse. Try to eat sensibly; leafy greens, blueberries, salmon. All good for RA/JRA. Also find good books, movies or PS3 games and remember you will survive.
Side note: Addiction does change who a person is and functions on a neural level. Your nervous system is now fundamentally changed; this is how a person develops tolerance to a drug their body adapts. I do not mean to belittle addiction, but only to express my own anger at this situation.
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